Hello. It's the tenth day of 2016, so how was 2016 so far? For me, it pretty much sucks.
School started on the 4th of January which is 6 days ago, but its stressing me already.
I got into sub-science stream which is not the stream i wanted. I wanted to get into an art class. I love arts. I express my feeling with it.
For those who don't know, there's three streams in my school for the form 4s and form 5s. Mostly, there's two streams only for other schools but three in my school.
So there's the science stream, the sub-science stream and then the art stream.
For science stream, you will get to learn biology, chemistry, physics and add math.
For sub-science stream, you will have chemistry, physics, add math and accounts.
For arts, its different for each class.
The first class will have, science, add math, accounts and economy.
The second class will have science, arts, accounts and economy.
Third class will have science, arts, geography.
last class will have science and arts.

Each class determine what you will study for in college and it is relevent to your future occupation.
I'm just 16 but i have decide what to study for college and it will be business or maybe hotel management.
If I'm going to study business, i will have to take economy and accounts. And i love arts. I have a passion for it. I am confident that i can score a credit with it.
And so, i believe second arts is the best for me.
I applied for that class, i reached the qualifications for that class, but plot twist: i got into sub-science.
I thought i could give it a chance. Although the chances of getting 5 credits (the minimum requirements for a college) is lower than 10%, i thought that i could try studying few hours everyday.
But i talked with my parents and they adviced me to go for second class because its best for me.
So i applied to change class. A lot of students did. They are all going for second arts. Which makes me worry.
The main reason the school is letting us to apply is to kick out the ones who failed science and maths but got into sub-science.
I got into sub-science but i did not fail any of that. My math got a B, my science got an E. Its just an E. I can't cope with chemistry and physics.
Especially when everyone in my class is so smart. I'm not.
Anyone could be telling me that i got an E because i didn't try hard enough, maybe chemi and physics would work is i try harder. No, i can't.
I can't cope with them.
I felt so stressed and pressured in my current class on the 2nd of class that i cried. Who get stressed just on the second day? Is it just me?
I am not in that league. I'm not as smart as everyone. I'm just a normal girl who try her hardest but not a smart one.
I hate it when everyone tells me: " easy for you to say, you are smarter than us." No I'm not. If I'm smart i would ace science. I'm not good at thinking. My way of passing exams was just memorizing the whole textbook. But science is about thinking. Thinking why would that happen and you will give out theories and possibilities. But I'm just someone who can tell you what's the name of a certain body parts because i just have to memorize it.
I may sound selfish but to be honest, i feel like i deserves second arts more than everyone. Its relevant to my further studies, i am confident i can score 5 credits there , i have a passion for arts more than most of the people applying for that class. But I'm worried that i might not be able to get into that class.
I don't want to stay in this class....
I want to study arts....
Its my only two years of time to study it. My last two years for it.
I want to study it.